Achieving My Goals

Cynthia Fabian
Cynthia Fabian

By Cynthia Fabian

“It always seems impossible until it’s done.” Nelson Mandela

When you think of goals, the first thing you think of is creating a better life and getting things done. Going to college, buying a car, finding a home, marriage and starting a family sometimes can seem overwhelming, even impossible.

But for some, finding yourself and staying on track also means managing epilepsy, which also can feel nearly impossible.

The road to managing your own health often takes a great deal of soul-searching. For me, managing my own health has been part of my life since I was 9 years old and diagnosed with epilepsy, at a time when there was little or no help for people with this neurological disorder.

As a child, I had the dream of becoming a teacher and writer. But my dreams were crushed when mom died when I was 9 nine years old, and at 17, when my father died. That meant deferring college and working at many jobs, including exercise instructor, proofreader and editor. While there were many problems, things just seemed to flow, with the help of writing and meditation.

My life really started over when I was 30, and medication helped to free me from generalized seizures. Living in New York at the time, you had to be two years seizure free before you were allowed to drive (in Florida it is six months seizure free). But I finally learned to drive in my mid-30s.

Then, I got to work and finished my bachelor’s degree, then went on to get a master’s degree in TESOL (Teaching English as a Second Language). At the same time, I began writing books for children.

Teaching, a deferred dream, came true, but life as a New York City teacher was a challenge. I worked in the Bronx and Queens. I found a road helping young adults to learn and to also heal their own lives as needed. In addition, I taught at CUNY (City University of New York) as an adjunct professor of English.

I found that meeting goals was possible. I decided to write my way through life and do what had previously seemed impossible. Now, I have authored seven books for young children and middle grades. My books help kids overcome obstacles in their lives. I continue to write, and speak to audiences of all ages about overcoming obstacles.

I continue to navigate my way through life and the many difficult situations that present themselves. I take deep breaths, meditate, and have learned to live in the present moment.

As part of that, I wanted to give back to others with epilepsy. After speaking with Andria at JoshProvides, I became involved with its Epilepsy Support Group. Furthermore, I spoke to the group on the importance of journaling, and donated some of my books.

Sometimes life still seems impossible, but somehow my goals have been accomplished, one breath, and one word at a time.

Cynthia Fabian